Sunday, 10 May 2015

When I decided to shake hands with the Devil!

What?" you ask. Yes! That’s what time made me over period of time. You MOTHERFUCKERS.

So here is my terrible truth about what I have happened with over the period of time. I was the confused guy with his innocence roaming around with open willingness to help everyone.

I never got any respect, because society is full of people who need things. They need houses built, they need food to eat, and they need entertainment and need someone to fulfil their sexual relationships. I arrived at that point with my innocence being honest and straightforward, maybe by virtue of my birth.

I realized that I have to go about the task of seeing to those needs by learning a unique set of skills, or the world will reject, no matter how kind, giving, and polite one is. You will be poor, you will be alone, and you will be left out in the cold.

Does that seem mean, or crass, or materialistic? Yes, Darling! Unfortunately that’s the truth.  It’s brutal, rude and inhuman, it is an honest and accurate expression of what the world is going to expect from you.

These things happened with me for a long time. I had to deal with cheaters,blackmailers & backstabbers. That scene changed my life. I programmed myself to play it for me every morning as they wanted it to be. I said to myself “Fuck all that! Let’s go out and show them. “

"Nice guy? Who gives a shit? If you want to live here, change that thing up." “Don't say that you're a nice guy -- that's the bare minimum”

Now, while not giving a fuck may seem simple on the surface, it’s a whole new bag of burritos under the hood. I don’t even know what that sentence means, but I don’t give a fuck.

In my opinion, I don’t hate myself because some people made me feel low-esteem, or because they were mean to me. I mean I realized I shouldn't do. Those things made a different person out of me. I kept on sending private messages to all my close friends asking what I should do with my life.

I’d decide to change something (or usually, many things at once) and implement it immediately. I’d tell myself that from this point forward, things would be different.

I decided bring out the dark sides me out. I decided incorporate the evil traits into me. In fact, I decided to shake hands with the devil because the devil is behind most of the problems you are having. I decided to shake hands with the devil to end all the miseries and problems in life, which often kept me asking how pathetic and miserable I am.