Sunday, 28 December 2014

Throw me to the WOLVES, and I'll return leading the Pack

I saw this quote posted on Facebook and thought its perfect to begin this post with. Why? Because it sums up how I changed during the past several months. It’s wasn`t easy for someone like me to be shoved into turbulent waters just for making a wrong decision It’s even harder to keep your head above water while trying to find a way out.

At other times, I just roll over and go and hide, nursing my wounds. I guess what motivates me to take a non-combatant attitude during these hard times is the need to be true to my upbringing.

Nothing is gained by not fighting back, of course. I think of the person who said, "You'll never amount to anything.You will never become successful. You are a disgrace to journalism." I think of that person who smiles at me and yet disgraced in front of others to show oneself in superior position...the person who wanted to throw me out to the wolves. I have been discouraged a lot saying how loser I am, I have been let down by people who mattered during bad times.

Today Am I going to slink away and hide nursing my wounds, worried about the trail of blood I left behind for predators to follow? No, I wont but instead I am gonna say, "I am here, Come & get me." 

 I had a conversation with a dear friend on this, I asked “Now I can confidently say that things are not the same anymore.I am not afraid of anyone. I will face it without any If someone throw me out to the wolves.She said “That’s because you are already a wolf the power you have is intense, it can control any wolf even me.”

Time to Unload Emotional Baggage From Past

We can all take comfort knowing that every one of us faces challenges at some point. No one is perfect. Everyone deals with emotional baggages. No one is perfect. Each person's baggage is different. If you have cheated or been cheated on.

When the nights are long and you can't sleep for all the sadness of a past left unresolved, when you cannot move on,you find it difficult to. When the past mistakes haunts you and becomes a nightmare for you.

Without realizing it, I carried this baggage from the past, thinking about what went wrong and where. Until a friend finally called me on and gave self-recognition to find out what I was doing. The problem wasn’t that I had baggage, everyone carries their own baggage but sometimes you have to leave behind some baggages from the past to move on in life.

Each of us have experienced positive and negative relationships regardless of how brief or long those relationship have been. We learn to take risks in secure and healthy relationships. But its time for me to learn from the past and to let go of toxic relationships which kept me broken.

I have realized that I don’t deserve to feel awful any more and that the days of feeling sorry for past mistake and broken relationships are over! Now I realized that I am the priority, I should be opne to accept the love deserve in life. 

What happened? Of Course, there is nothing that I can do to change that. However, What I can do is to learn from that experience. As someone said What happens, happens for a reason, happens for something good.